There is nothing like an indian burn during
an indian summer, pretending like we are
elementary again, except we are driving--
windows down, hair sometimes in our eyes,
noises sometimes in our hair, heat
blasting on our rain boot covered feet.

I turn the radio up.
And we are singing
with our chins tilted skyward, our hands
up and down in rhythmic motion to the beat
(to the beat?) looking at the world
beyond our noses -- a flurry of
brake lights and red lights and head
lights that become fireflies on this
elementary night.

We're in the vanishing day,
and we must live through it
before it ends. Everyone must live through it
before it ends, but who will remember
it when it's gone?

There is nothing like a warm night
and cool wind and a darkness that
blots the stars. Like the memory of loneliness, 
like the aftertaste of goodbye.

I'm losing the mystery of childhood
like I'm losing my sense of direction
and my willingness to forgive.

Conrad gets here on Thursday!!! I'm so super excited. I can't wait. Internet guy gets here Tuesday to give us some real internet. All we need is a couch and coffee table. :)

This was Conrad 2 weeks ago. He's so big already! He has a hernia on his little tummy from when his mommy pulled too hard on his cord. I'm going to get it fixed when I take him to be neutered so he doesn't have to have 2 surgeries already at such a young age. All that anesthesia is no good for a pup pup.

So, we never found Maggie. Our first pet is lost, and we're still getting over it. We go to the shelter sometimes to look at all the kittens and play with them, but we're not ready for another cat yet.

Instead, we're getting Conrad.

Say hello:

On the 26th, he was 2 weeks and 3 days old. Now he's 2 weeks and 5 days old! What a baby. He's currently in Washington all the way across the country. He's a red poodle puppy. Poodle! Did I really just say that? I was looking at dobies and rottweilers and pits. How did I settle on a poodle? Well, believe it or not, poodles are extremely athletic, love to exercise and swim, and are unofficially the second most intelligent dogs (the first is the border collie). I'm so excited for him to get here. He'll be here August 4th or 5th. :) Eeee!!!!

Also, Tyler will be moving into his/our very own place on July 11. That's where Conrad will be staying since I'm still on campus because of my job. He's going to be a big boy, around 80-90 pounds full grown. I'm so impatient.

Wow. Where have I been? Summer school + work + running + yoga is really exhausting me. Updates:

Lunch with my baby.

Wait, who is that? I only have one dog, right? Wrong. Meet the newest member of our family: Tiffany!

What a cuddle bug. She loves to crawl into my lap.

And then do this.

Look at that face.

Benji is not amused. Just kidding. Benji's obsessed with her. I recently took Benji to be neutered and then took them both to be groomed/bathed/teeth brushed/etc. Next stop: the vet. Benji's teeth are awful. He needs to go to the vet ASAP.

One good thing is that Benji seems a lot happier with Tiffany around. He's so neglected here so I've been spoiling them both, and I hope my parents keep up with it. Benji is really really timid and seems like he was abused pretty badly as a puppy. He doesn't like to be held at all, and it takes A LOT of coaxing to get him to come to you. He seems friendlier now like he's warming up. He doesn't know how to play with toys but watches Tiffany play with them. He sort of cuddles up to you now when he sees Tiffany doing it. I think with time, she'll help him a lot.

She's 5 years old. I adopted her from a foster family who told me they rescued her from a puppy mill where she was bred a lot. It's pretty evident. They said she's spayed already. I hope so.

My mom playing Angry Birds. We were supposed to take my grandmother to the airport but we ended up going too late and missed the flight. Then my grandma had to be on standby, so my dad went in with her to the gates and my mom and I sat here eating pizza and fries.

Warning: Boring Stuff Ahead

My second MCAT is scheduled for June 16. It sucks already that I have to take it a second time since I got a 27 the first time (awful!) but I still don't feel ready. If I get a 32, I'm golden. But I don't feel confident. I've been studying and taking a lot of practice tests, and it just stresses me out more and more. So I've been looking into 1 year postbac programs that are designed specifically for people looking to apply to med school. I've found some really good ones at Georgetown, UPenn, and VCU that I could get into with no problem. Georgetown and VCU even have linked programs where if you excel in the postbac, you'll get an interview for their med schools. How awesome is that? I feel like with another year, I could focus just on the science (instead of +English, +creative writing, +3 jobs) and really nail all of this stuff. What if I do better this time around on the MCAT, get into med school, and completely flop in the classes? I'm trying to be more honest with myself, and I think that's what would happen. I need to get back into the studying regimen I had when I was at Science & Math. Right now, I'm doing too many things. It's hard to admit that I failed at something, but I'm still on track.